It's all in my head. It's all in my head. They're all in my head. Now who they are exactly is something of a question mark.

There are a lot of them. They are hard to discern, so it often sounds like one loud voice. But it makes more sense that it is a combined effort. It's interesting, because I give people a pass, assuming there's no bad intention. They didn't intend to become a nightmarish mantra in my head. So that absolves them. Not that I'm really interested in blaming anyone. But fact from fiction is important here. One must accurately identify the culprits in the course of history, regardless of intention. You can only surmise intention. Even the party in question may not know their own intent. Intent comes partly from the gut, rather than the mind.

There are those who have inadvertently or purposefully drilled their poison into my brain and soul. That is the situation, and I am left here to pick up the pieces and put myself back together. I must retrieve my shattered soul from it's little corner where it likes to hide from the nasties. It must supplant all the chaos and hopelessness. It's kind of like the Tao Te Ching, right? The strongest force is watery. The quiet, flowing true soul (the Way) has the capacity to erode any behemoths. Love is akin to this, too. If I were more in touch with my loving self over the years, I could have had some protection from those nasties.